I'm not sure what has suck out my creative energy but it's diffidently on hiatus for the time being. As of late, I've just lost all my energy to go out and create. The idea well is dry, my wallet is very light and my cameras, well, they're collecting dust. The few times I did wonder out, shot off a few rolls, I've hated or rather loath my own work. And this loathing has turned me off from photography and art in general.
But it's just a rut perpetuated by my poor financal state. My energy is all on work, making money and keeping my debt collectors at bay. I wish I were a strong artist, one who could to live on what I love to do [I'm not counting that out for the future but just for the time being] but I have to be a realist.
But I haven't lost my passion for art: Art has always been a part of me. My sour mood is just apart of a cycle, a cycle that runs up and down. Some ups are higher and some lows are in the pit of darkness. I've been here before and sometimes I think it's a good thing.
And no, I'm not leaving DA [sorry, I'll be bugging you for a long time] as DA has really helped me. Plus I spend most time running the club and trying my best to help other photographers. The club has been the best thing I've done on-line and I only hope it gets bigger and the ball keeps rolls [so as long as I can handle it].
I still have a bunch of medium format film that needs to be scanned: when I did go shoot, I shot only with my Yashica. It's two bucks to get a frame scanned so when I get a small stockpile of cash I hope to share with you my adventures with a square.
Enjoy this months features, I know there are a little late, but they are good nonetheless.

For those US folks: Happy Labor day. Enjoy the three day weekend [if you can]. I'm still working on processing some medium format shoots; I just haven't had the cash for the lab to scan the film for me.
Enjoy this months features, when I have more to say, I'll give ya'll and update that would be worthwhile. Or at lease I think worthwhile.

So I've decided to upgrade [or downgrade as some may say] to a new DSLR. I truly love my Fuji S2 and it's performed wonderfully these past few years but it's an old DSLR. The camera came out in 2002 and so many photographers questioned me on why I was using such an old camera. Not that I ever cared what anyone ever thought.
Due to it's age, it has many limitations: sucks at low lighting, focusing is slow, the buffer runs like a slug; not to mention how heavy and clunky the body is.

So I got myself a Nikon D40x.

Yes I know its a "consumer" camera. But after hours of research [might I add the amazing deal I got it on] I really wanted a lightweight, smaller camera and settled on the D40x.
It's kinda odd, really. The only DSLRs I've ever used have been the Nikon and Fuji line of pro digital cameras. I started on the Nikon D1 [oh the stories I could tell about that camera!] moving down the line to a D1H, D1X, D2, etc. But these cameras are heavy and bulky and a pain in the ass to lug around.

So for the past week I've been playing around with my new camera. And I'm 50/50 on it. It takes good pictures, it really does! The buffer is quick and the metering is on target. But the f'in camera's auto focus only works on the newer AF-S lenses! And those are pricey! And it does all this weird consumer things like constantly reminding me my subject is too dark.

All in all: I have no idea what to do. Do I re-sell it and say fuck it and finance myself a D2X [D3 and D300 are way outta my league price range]? Or do I made the most outta my goofy D40x? I should have done my homework better, but oh well. That's what you get when you are Kelly.

But other then buying cameras, Polaroid film, searching for jobs and selling vintage shit, I haven't been doing much. I'm enjoying my Polaroid 680 way too much and still battling over that damn Yashica. Yesterday I also failed, my sixth year in a row, in capturing fourth of July fireworks. God do I suck!

But I'm gunna shut up for now, get back to work! Enjoy this month's features, stop by and visit my club and I'll see y'all in August!

Originally, I was going to write my journal on Monday, but seeing that I'm very anti-Monday I thought I'd wait 'til later on in the week: but today kinda feels like a Monday, without the Monday label so I didn't accomplish much...
Forget the mindless dribble.
I've hit the writer's block of photography. I can't seem to get off my lazy butt to go and shoot. Yes, for those who know me know that I am the laziest photography on the planet. Probably why I only got C's in all my photojournalism classes back in college...
But really, I'm outta ideas for the moment. I tried shooting some street and failed miserably, I did shoot a few Polas still-lifes and failed [three packs mind you] miserably and if I don't like it, I'll never post it here on DA. I got a few images on medium format but have no way [or $$] to get them scanned. Total bummer. And my poor, seven-year old S2 is dying.
Sigh
But I'm not too worried, I've all ways worked around my photo issues.
Plus I don't really log into my personal account anymore. Now, hold on: I'm not leaving DA [haha! can't get rid of me that easy!] it just that my club, *Photo--Assignment takes a chunk of time. Not in a bad way, I really enjoy running the club, meeting photographers and viewing loads of new, fresh work. And it's really taken off! I often wonder why certain clubs do better than others; is it because many clubs don't stay active or the ideology behind the club stinks? Overall, I have had great support with PA with only a few nasty emails that bashed the club. Oh don't worry, I ripped into those individuals with such vulgarity, I dare repeat myself here. :evil:
Hopefully I'll come up with some new ideas soon. I only THREE that I am going to work on: one today and a few infrared image ideas [god help me with that!]
See y'all in July!
Enjoy this months fab features!
Kelly

It's been such a headache lately. And it's not just because my sinuses are acting up due to all the pollen in the air...
I've applying for so many jobs lately and one job in particular I thought I had in the bag, so to speak.
I had gone through all the interviews, all the testing, even a physical. I was told I had a good [a real good] chance of starting on May 4th. So I waited, and waited and once May 5th came around, I called and asked about the job.
They took 50 and I was 51. I have another chance in August.
How depressing. I really had my hopes ups...
So, I've been down the past few days, hence the delay in my journal and features.
I'm back on the blackboard, trying to figure out something, a plan B if you will. Jobs are rare in Cleveland [good ones that is] but I'll keep trying.
In the meantime, I'm still selling vintage clothing on eBay [link] and Etsy [link] [I'll give a 20% discount on any orders to DA folks, if your interested] and hitting flea markets and estate sales in the days to come.
On a brighter note, I did get commissioned to do some photography for the democratic headquarters. Maybe I'll make it as a real artist...a starving one, yes.